Digging a little deeper, getting a little higher…


Good Evening Everyone!  I sincerely hope that this work week was good to you all!  I know I am looking forward to a weekend that is filled with relaxation, meditation, family and SLEEP!  Lol….

I want to chat about something, a change to be precise, that has happened internally for me.  I only really figured it out in the past week and I am so excited to share it with you.  Something personal happened in the past week that before would have sent me down a serious road of  self analyzing that in turn would have spurred a serious Q&A session in my head.  I am not going to divulge the personal circumstance.  (I can’t share everything with you all!)

As I have mentioned in a previous post I went through a pretty painful self discovery about 2 years ago.  I  worked really hard to overcome that pain, loss and self-doubt.  I am NOT totally rid of the self-doubt because I believe that will be a work in progress for some time to come at any given point in my life.  Maybe one day I will be enlightened enough to never encounter self-doubt again … um yeah right.  Oh wait, there I go again!  Hahahaha!

I’ll get started….as the quote above states I used to prefer my suffering because it was what I knew. Although I knew I didn’t enjoy it, it was familiar.  It was a protective barrier with giant walls.  If I didn’t break down those walls then I would never get hurt again.  I could live within the safe compound of my suffering.  For as much as an adventurer that I am, I didn’t want to venture personally out of fear of failure, pain and disappointment.  Now the suffering that I went through could be completely different from the kind of suffering that you or someone you know may be going through.    No matter what it is, it IS possible to overcome and when you least expect you will find yourself one day in a complex situation and your old way of thinking won’t even enter your mind.

One of my great discoveries in this life is Deepak Choprah and his The Seven Spiritual Laws of Success.  I bought this book on iTunes and listened to it in my car over and over and over and over again!  To this day I STILL listen to it just to keep myself on track.  Deepak Choprah talks about how you can change your way of thinking by going into the gap, the space between thoughts, “…this space between thoughts is pure consciousness, pure silence, and pure peace. When we meditate, we use an object of attention, such as our breath, an image, or a mantra, which allows our mind to relax into this silent stream of awareness. When thoughts arise, as they inevitably will, we don’t need to judge them or try to push them away. Instead, we gently return our attention to our object of attention.”  Meditation has also become a go to appreciation, relaxation and inspirational place for me.  Now, I am by NO MEANS a meditating, yogic or spiritual guru.  I am just simply sharing what has worked for me.  I changed my way of thinking by LETTING GO of my old ways of thinking.  The negativity, the self-doubt, the wanting like hell to control the situation, the wanting to force an outcome…  it completely went away for me this time around.  Deepak Choprah says you can do more by doing nothing.  I find that to be very true for me.  I find that if I sit back, don’t judge, don’t force and don’t try to control the situation then things work out exactly how they should without all the anxiety that comes from trying to control, force and judge.  There was a moment this past week where I tried to come up with a solution and implement it.  But it didn’t work.  It would not have worked because I was trying to be in control instead of just being.  I am not perfect at this.  But this past week I felt SOOOOO HAPPY with myself for realizing what was going on and choosing a different approach and response than what I would have before.  I am now able to set positive intentions in my meditations.  Not selfish ones.  Only positive ones that will benefit the greater good of everyone involved.

Now I am just letting my situation unfold exactly how the universe wants it to.  Naturally.  Without human interference, my humanness!

Relationships, life, work, etc. can all change if we decided to change our thoughts and become more self aware.  There are many aspects of my life that I still need to apply this to.  But when it happened this past week I felt like I was on cloud nine!

I may want a certain out come but it may not be the one intended for me.  The difference this time around is that I ACCEPT that!  And that feels pretty damn good!  Here is a great link about acceptance from a Choprah Center newletter.  http://www.chopra.com/files/newsletter/Feb11/Newsletter-Feb11-david.html

(I apparently don’t have the option in insert a hyperlink so you will have to copy and paste it)  😦

Becoming a happier human is an ever ongoing process that suprises me, enlightens me and makes me hopeful.  I hope this helped in someway for someone out there.


Peace, lots of warm sunshine love, and bubbles,


“Give what you have.  To someone it may be better than you dare to think.”

Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

Home, trips and Tulips!


Lovely morning everyone 🙂  I am so glad to be back into the swing of things.  I have been hunting for a new place to call home and I have finally found a wonderful place to lay my head 🙂  I was really searching hard for a place that is affordable and in my ideal location and I have found it!  I am able to go out my front door and WALK to my favorite bakery, natural foods store and the most important, my beloved Rocky River Reservation.  I have never been more excited and felt more whole and complete than I do right now since I have been back from California.  It was very important to me to follow what my mind and heart wanted.  What I wanted was something small, cozy and intimate with LOTS of character.  I have always gravitated towards much older spaces.  You know, the ones with skeleton key locks, original woodwork, built in cabinets and old cast iron bathtubs.    I really like my new home and I am taking my time to decorate it and make it my peaceful dwelling space.  

So now that you know what I have been up to for the past few months let get going!

It has been a long cold winter but I was able to get out a few times and lead a beautiful day hike and weekend backpacking trip.  

Jaite to Boston train CVNP.
Jaite to Boston train CVNP.

That was such a fun day!  The Jaite to Boston trail is one I originally did with my cousin Anna.  It is 5.6 miles one way (we only did part of it in the above pic.)  It is a great trail to hike in the winter because not only does it work your big muscle groups in your legs but it is a great hip strengthening trail because of the balance you have to maintain while trekking up and down in the snow!  I loved it and I know others did too 🙂

Back in February I led a small trip to Archer’s Fork Loop down in Wayne National Forest.  I first found out about this trail in an issue of Backpacker’s Magazine.  I was so stoked to see a local trail that was is only about 3 hours away featured in a national magazine!  Whoo Hoooo for Backpacker’s Magazine!  This trail was very cool because it feature a natural rock bridge and a really cool cave.  Now being someone who has explored our national parks well and has lived in California, I have to say that when I find these gems that are all over the Yosemite, Yellowstone etc, it is very nice to find them in your own backyard!  Beauty is everywhere,  big or small it all has an impact on our senses and psyche.  Breathe it all in.  Let it go.  But keep a small breath in your lungs and carry it with you always.  I was born in Montana and my family moved back to Ohio when I was only a few months old.  But I swear I breathed in the air of  Big Sky country and it has never left me.  My folks took us everywhere.  Camping and traveling to parks.  I am so incredibly thankful for that, for it instilled in me my sense of wonder/wander (lol…) and what really stuck with me is my parents saying, “Why not take you kids everywhere?  Kids are portable!”  My dad did the driving and navigating and my mom…. holy moly…she organized EVERYTHING and thought of EVERYTHING for her four children!  She was like a Native American woman who could set up and pack up  her Tipi (or teepee) in record time all the while being SUPER organized.   I hope to be that organized and resourceful one day!  

Archer's Fork Loop Trail, Wayne National Forest :D

Archer’s Fork Loop Trail, Wayne National Forest 😀

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 The weather started out cold, then became much colder and then warmed up to almost 45 degrees by the end of the trip!  It was so much fun!  The trail is in the middle of what we believe is fracking country.  It was a really beautiful trail but I could have done without the gas lines that we would sometimes trip over.  We set up camp next to a small brook and it was the perfect place to meditate and do yoga in the morning.  What was funny was the guys were having a debate about some very close sounds that surrounded our camp that night.  Mihai believed them to be coyotes and in his true Romanian fashion set off to scare them off by hooting, hollering and running wildly up the hill!  Hahahaha!!!! Wish I had it on video!  Anthony on the other hand believed them to be owls and was a very perplexed as to WHY Mihai would want to scare off owls!  So for the remainder of the trip almost everything was a reference to coyotes and owls!    

I am excited to be heading out again next weekend.  Friends and I are meeting up tomorrow to vote on the place we want to go.  I am also in the works of planning a big trip out west.  More on that one later!  

Now I am on my way to wonder the woods and later take my best friend Sara out for her birthday dinner!  Little Italy here we come!

Hope you all have an amazing day!

I would love to hear some of your travel stories so please feel free to post in the comments section!

“Give what you have.  To someone it may be better than you dare to think.”

Henry Wadsworth Longfellow