How many people are truly happy being themselves? I mean really, what does it take to be one’s true self? We live in a world where everything is just full of Instagram, Facebook and Snapchat photos that say, “My life is so perfect!”
Why are people afraid to live outside of what society as a collective whole expects of them? I’ve been thinking a lot about this lately and my journey into willingly moving into my car and completely and totally downsizing my life. Recently my iPhone 6 took a swim and instead of paying the insurance deductible on it and replacing it I went back to a flip phone and I have been absolutely loving it. I thought without my iPhone that I would be missing out or not be connected to things that I felt were important to me. For instance extreme athletes Instagram pages and finding inspiration in them. When really this past week I found a lot of inspiration, at the risk of sounding corny, inspiration within myself. I’m looking at these athletes on Instagram and I’m thinking, “Wow okay if only I could eat right and be like them, only if I could move there and do those certain things my life would be so much fuller!” But really when I cut back all the noise I found the silence completely fulfilling. Not that those athletes aren’t an inspiration, they are! They inspire and drive and create and promote an amazing lifestyle. But sometimes you get caught up in wanting that lifestyle that you’re spending more time on the couch watching it through pictures then actually living it yourself!
I would say that my true self, my authentic being is a person who just wants to wake up and be free. A person who wants to experience so many different sunrises everywhere. A person who still at the age that I am gets giddy like a kid because the sunrise is so amazing and the lake is totally rumblinbg with passion that it puts a smile on my face that is so big I can’t contain it and I let out the most ridiculous laugh!
This morning I went to the gym and then I sat in Starbucks reading the newspaper which is one of my favorite things to do. I love drinking a cup of coffee and reading the newspaper, I absolutely love it. As I sat there a while all cozy next to the fireplace I looked at the time on my phone and I was like, “Oh my gosh I have to go I’m going to miss the colors!” So I drove down to the lake and sure enough I missed an amazing sunrise. I did take some beautiful pictures on my tablet but I found myself apologizing to the sun and to the earth and to the lake because I should have been there sooner to witness the combined beauty of them. But then I had a thought, I realized that the sunrise, the lake and the sky are the loves of my life. That may sound quirky or aloof to some of you reading this but nothing brings me more joy than that. I love my family I really do but the smile that creeps across my face when I watch the sun peak over the horizon and the colors that it paints against the morning sky or when I wake up early early enough to where I watch the stars fade into daylight, there’s nothing like it.
I am this blog. I was once accused of being too wild and free or wanting to be too wild and free. But I can’t imagine being any other way. I could not imagine not feeling that way or waking up being afraid to feel that way. That is who I am, I’m a restless exploring soul and I love it.
Live Who You Are. Live your life who you really are without any boundaries. If you quiet the noise in the world you will hear yourself loud and clear.
“Give what you have. To someone, it may be better than you dare to think. ”
~ Henry Wadsworth Longfellow