Blessed are those who live out their dreams, that’s the difference between listening to the knock on the door and going to answering it.
(I don’t know who said this but I love it.)
I have a 5 year plan. I have never had a solid plan, ever. The biggest plan I ever had was when I packed up my car and planned to drive to California over 4-5 days then attend white water guide school.
Fast forward a decade and I am ready for a change. I THRIVE ON CHANGE. I love everything about it. The excitement of something new, the trials and tribulations that absolutely suck at the time but you realize that it is a HUGE growth moment inside your soul and it is shaking you to the core. The unknown is what I love most about life. Who am I going to meet? Where am I going to go? What am I going to do a particular day? Sometimes I just get in my car and take off in a certain direction and just drive for hours, sometimes days. My last solo trip I had zero idea except that I was first driving to Oregon to see my best friend and from there…whatever I felt like doing, wherever I felt like going in that moment.
It was my trip to Glacier during the aforementioned road trip that I had a life changing moment. I wrote before about the massive affect Glacier had on me and then the huge bawling session I had on the side of the road in Black Feet Reservation after leaving GNP. Saying I wanted to stay out there is a huge understatement. However I knew I couldn’t move somewhere with a mere $500 in my pocket again like I did California. I want to continue to travel and explore new places but now, as I am straddling 40 years old, I want a game plan. A real game plan. From the moment I decided to move to California to the day I left my parents driveway was just under 2 months. Now, I have 5 years planned out.
I have a desire to stay laser focused. Of course there is room for some deviation. But for the first time in my life what I see in the end is more appealing than what I see in the here and now.
Last year at the end of my trip out west I set a goal for finding a job closer to home by the end of the year. I did that. I have saved $70 a month on commuting gas, 16 hours a month on my driving commute. I can now walk, bike or skateboard to work when the weather is nice.
This year my plan means giving up BIG trips for the next 6-7 months and small trips all together. No buying new gear or household items and cutting waaaay back on frivolous spending. Going out for coffee once a pay instead of several times a week. COOKING AT HOME. Novel concept right? My excuse was, “It is hard to cook for one person.” That’s crap. Today I thought about going out to breakfast, getting an afternoon coffee and ordering Chinese for dinner. In refraining from all that I saved about $25. That may not seem like a lot but it is $25 toward my end goal.
I have started a business. I am working on getting it up and running. I have begun putting a lot of time and energy into creating it and growing it. This will bring me closer to my goal. I have a long way to go as I have financial commitments that must be taken care of first. But I am focused on “building” my future.
In this time of self awareness I am growing so darn much. Spiritually for sure. Namaste dudes ;D I am more conscious of my body and how I take care of it. I am dedicating more of my time to a regular meditation practice….Oooooooomm! I am not a spiritual guru. I am just me, listening to and for the first time (it’s about time…lol), focusing on myself for the sake of my future…not just the present.
I am totally stoked about my 5 year plan. Yes, there are days that I have to remind myself out loud, “5 year plan Lori, your doing this for your 5 year plan!!!!!!! Ugggghhhhh!!! For the love of god it’s for your darn 5 year plan!!!” But in the end I remember and I get excited about all the things to come.
I’ve already accomplished one dream of mine 10 years ago. Now I have another one. I am dreamer. If you have a dream or desire to do something amazing whether it’s relocating to someplace you been dying to live or something small like developing a self care routine. Start it. If not now when? Make your life happen!
“Give what you have. To someone, it may be better than you dare to think.”
~Henry Wadsworth Longfellow